Sunday Nov 27, 2022

I Want My Skin Back: living with BPD

Ep. 63 What does it feel like to live with Borderline Personality Disorder? Right now, Kelly Marie is dealing with a depressive episode and during these times she finds that her BPD is "closer to the surface" now than when she doesn't have an overlapping depressive episode. She's been implementing the tools that she knows helps her to manage her mental health conditions and one of those ways is through journaling.

JOURNAL ENTRY 11/27/22:

When I feel this way, I feel raw. Like someone has peeled away the layers of my skin, one layer at a time they expose me and my feelings to the world. I feel tingly. Not in a good way but in a scrubbed hard with a bristle brush way. I'm only guessing because I've never been scrubbed hard with a bristle brush. What am I supposed to do? I just want to lay in the bed and cry. I feel like everything that I say is wrong. I'm sharing too much or not enough. I can't find the right words. The struggle for basic words that I know I know but they just don't come to me. I can't figure out how to put thoughts together and connect them to sentences and words in order to explain what I'm thinking. It's taking everything I have, okay not everything, but I am really struggling with managing my emotions right now. And I don't know what to do. I'm implementing the tools. I'm writing down my feelings. And journaling. If this counts as journaling. Actually, I know it counts as journaling. But I'm just raw. I feel naked.

Listen in to learn more about how Kelly Marie is managing her conditions while still living the Front Seat Life.

Mental Health Resources

Call 211 or visit www.211.org for help finding public services in your area

Suicide Prevention Helpline has someone for you to talk to 24/7 call 988

Text GO to 741741 to reach a trained crisis counselor

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